Always looking, never seeing

by: Jessica Lynne Trese
What would it mean to stop looking and actually SEE?

I have spent the majority of my life looking for something. Looking for approval, looking for love, looking for validation, looking for happiness, looking everywhere for what was missing in my heart, for what was missing in my life. I looked to others, I looked to money, I looked to partners, I looked to material possessions…basically, I looked outward.

This constant LOOKING finally led me to a yoga mat.

I was looking for peace of mind, looking for something more in my life, looking for a healthier body. As I began practicing yoga regularly, my pattern of looking outward for validation and happiness continued. I would look for approval, look for new poses, look for the next accomplishment.

All of this looking was to fill something that was missing in my life.

And where did this get me? I found pain, suffering, frustration, loneliness and isolation.

But, with the help of some really amazing teachers along the way, I was led to turn inward and observe. I finally learned to calm down my monkey mind enough to start to see and witness my inner landscape.

Instead of looking outward to receive what I needed, I found a path to turn inward.

And there it was revealed, everything I was seeking was inside me all along. Like the tearful moment when Dorothy realizes she could have been swept back to Kansas at any moment, I found myself rushed with the overwhelming knowledge that I had everything I was looking for me inside me already.

तदा द्रष्टुः स्वरूपेऽवस्थानम् ॥३॥
tadā draṣṭuḥ svarūpe-‘vasthānaṃ ॥1.3॥

And then, the seer abides in His own nature.

By practicing yoga, you can lead your self toward bliss and supreme connectivity. Or, you can also be led toward more suffering.

The intention beneath your practice is what matters the most.

What are you looking for on your mat?

What do you SEE when you look within?



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What’s the deal with the drishti (dṛṣṭi)?

by: Jessica Lynne Trese

We hear it a lot from our teachers: ‘gaze hear, gaze there.’

But why?

Our yoga practice is meant to focus the mind, while healing the body and increasing our overall vital energy.

A combined concentration on these three practices opens the doorway to a moving meditation and allows our yoga practice to transform into a comprehensive healing system.

The poses are there for the health of the body. The breath allows us to connect to and increase our vital energy. And the dṛṣṭi (gazing point) is how we focus the mind.

Wherever your gaze goes, so does your mind. So, if your gaze is dancing all around the room, watching other practitioners, and/or watching yourself in the mirror; then your mind is also bouncing around, unfocused and distracted.

Give your mind the gift of focus and keep your gaze steady. When the suggested gaze is not possible, keep your gaze focused close by, either on your own mat or somewhere on your body.

focused gaze = focused mind



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Returning the Mat

by: Jessica Lynne Trese
Samasthiti Feet
I hadn’t practiced in 18 weeks and the idea of stepping back on my mat was a little overwhelming. I started practicing Ashtanga Yoga in 2007 and since then, I’ve never taken this much time away from my practice.

There are so many reasons we can get pulled away from our mat: injury, pregnancy, depression, illness and sometimes laziness. For me, it happens to be a joyous reason, but the idea of trying to ‘rebuild’ my practice after four and a half months off still brought up all of my old patterns of perfectionism and avoidance (if I can’t get it ‘perfect’ I have a history of just avoiding it).

Baby TreseIt is recommended that women rest from their Ashtanga practice during the first trimester of pregnancy. This is a very delicate time in the gestational process and most women are guided to let their bodies lead the process without adding a strong practice to the mix. For me, this hiatus began with standard first trimester rest, and then some complications led me from voluntary rest to limited activity as ordered by my Doctor. We also had a few more bumps in the road which kept me away from my mat for another month.

And then, it was time, little bundle was safe and healthy, and I was cleared to resume normal pregnant activity.

The first week back was tougher than I could have ever imagined. I tried, but all I seemed to be able to pull out of myself were sun salutations. And it wasn’t easy, most days I wanted to just quit practicing. My mind was distracted and disconnected, my body was stiff and resistant and my heart was unrestful as I moved through these familiar motions.

But after the first week of struggling, I finally started to feel excitement as I stepped on my mat each day, and with it along came some additional physical strength and stamina to practice more than only sun salutations. I’m in the process of reconnecting to my practice, and the moments of interconnectedness are beginning to grow again, slowly I’m seeing more frequent peacefulness in my practice.

19weeks Baby BumpI know I will never ‘get back to where I was,’ because that moment has passed and this moment is an entirely new experience. And I also know I will once again find ease and grace on my mat, a brand new and also familiar experience in each fresh moment, and in each familiar pose. I will once again grab my heels in kapotasana, and find lightness as I drop back, it will come.

But it won’t come as a RE-creation of what was. It will come as a simultaneously familiar and entirely brand new experience as I move through my practice each day.

General guidelines for practicing Ashtanga Yoga during Pregnancy





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Some Truth About Ashtanga Yoga

By: Jessica Lynne Trese (Moore)

Sometimes Ashtanga Yoga can get a bad reputation in the yoga community. It’s called the ‘fitness yoga’ and all the students are closed-minded because they practice the same ‘routine’ everyday. And Ashtangis are known for being a little over the top with our adherence to ‘the rules of Ashtanga.’

Is Ashtanga Yoga ‘fitness yoga?’

No, not the way most people think of fitness routines. Our asana practice (postures) is meant to heat up the body, to cleanse, purify and enliven the physical body from the inside out.

A more fitting description would be ‘body healing yoga’ because we find balance, ease and health throughout the physical body from the physical asana practice.

Are we closed-minded because we practice the same ‘routine’ everyday?

Not even close! We open our minds, and hearts up to the subtle nuances of in-depth study. Ashtanga Yoga is used as a tool to turn inward and by taking the same ‘route’ inward each day we can start to notice the more subtle changes in the body. We can start to notice the more subtle changes in our hearts.

Taking a different route inward everyday you can miss the subtle changes in YOU!

Are we over the top in following ‘the rules of Ashtanga’?

Not really. Yes, there are some rules/guidelines that we stick to. Ashtanga Yoga is a tool for Self-transformation, and the rules/guidelines show us how to use this tool.

Simply by surrendering to the ‘rules’ of Ashtanga Yoga our transformation begins. The ‘rules’ show us what to do and when we let the mind surrender to this method, it can finally rest and stop trying to control every single thing. Then we can start to truly experience the present moment; the moment is no longer colored by the mind’s wish to have it be something else.  Presence and stillness can reside within the mind.

All those who practice the Ashtanga Yoga method for a long time, without break and with devotion have experienced the way the practice allows the light in our hearts to shine. Illuminating the present moment with acceptance, peace, gratitude and joy.

And the most amazing part of this practice is the Ashtanga Yoga Community. Our community spans the globe, and no matter how far one of us travels, if we find another Ashtanga student, we will have found a piece of our heart. Even if we don’t speak the same language, we can speak to each other through the language of our practice. A global community of people, each one dedicated to working on being the best version of their own Self as possible.


 



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Yoga Brings Out The Worst In Me…

By: Jessica Lynne Trese
Hate, fear, anxiety, anger, doubt, judgement – they all come flooding to the surface and they bring up all of my buried crap along the way. The more I practice yoga, the more I find my personal pain coming to the surface – and I LOVE it!!!

I went to my first yoga class after the um-teenth friend suggested I just try it. The suggestions always came up during discussions of spirituality and the meaning of life. Inevitably, the conversation would lead to this recurring phrase: ‘You know, you should really try yoga.’

So one day I did. And it was awesome! I felt great! All of the sudden, I had never felt better in my body. I was calmer, more present and had more energy. I was hooked! Yoga would be in my life forever.

I had no idea how choosing to include yoga in my life would transform my heart and soul. Yoga has allowed me to experience the peace of truly being comfortable with who I am.

This experience of yoga has not always been pleasant, and it doesn’t always feel good. There has been pain. There has been anger, fear, doubt, frustration and more. At the same time, it has been the most wonderful addition to my my life and has brought me more overall health, happiness and joy than anything I’ve ever tried before!

This practice of yoga continues to dredge the lake of my soul and shines light into the darkest corners of my heart, revealing all the shadows I have buried away, and had hoped to never see again. Having to re-experience this past pain is not easy.

My regular Ashtanga practice teaches me to observe my internal fluctuations. I’ve learned to watch the emotions and feelings as they come to the surface and instead of allowing myself to get wrapped up in all the pain and suffering I’ve buried, I am able to remain neutral… well neutral-ish.

Before yoga, neutral wasn’t possible for me. I was easily weighed down by experiences of sadness and grief. I would look for ways to burry and numb these feelings so I could just go back to feeling happy.

But because of the work I do on my yoga mat each day, I now realize when these feelings come up, it’s more than just a time to be reminded of the pain, it’s also an opportunity to release the pain once and for all.

If I can watch the emotions and pain as they come up, without holding onto them, they can finally be released. I can finally let them go, one at a time. And all of the sudden I am no longer weighted down by that pain and my heart is lighter.

Yoga has given me freedom. Freedom to be happy. Freedom to be who I am without the weight of past suffering. Freedom to experience and receive pure LOVE from the world around me. Freedom to give love to the world around me. Freedom.



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Led Full Primary: Igniting Your Practice

by: Jessica Lynne Trese

Ekam Inhale…

Two words, two languages, one breath, one practice.

Hearing those two words inspire a moment of spontaneous meditation for me. For a moment, I can feel the mat beneath my feet, I can feel Sharath’s presence on the stage nearby. The grace of surrender floods my system and ease fills my heart.

Surrendering to the pulse of Ashtanga Yoga, surrendering to the pace of the vinyasa count allows me to dive into the waters of the moving meditation. Stilling the mind and calming the body. The next 90 minutes are a concentrated experience of Breath, Bandhas and Dṛṣṭi.

Then rest, peace and tranquility pervade the physical, energetic and mental bodies. Stillness abounds.

The Ashtanga Full Primary.

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Conference Notes with R. Sharath Jois – November 2014

Sharath Conference #3
Notes by: Sara Moncivais

Last conference we spoke about three things, asana, breathing, and concentration (drishti). These three things are very important in our practice. Why not bandhas? Uddhiyana, mula, jalandhara bandha. These three, jalandhara means locking the chin, mula is the anus, and uddiyana bandha is below the navel. That is where we lock or contract.

This mula bandha is described in Hatha yoga Pradapika and many texts. These three bhandas, especially mula bandha, is very important. Mula is the source, the base. One verse says, always mula bandha. All the time, when walking, sitting, running, when you shouldn’t do…you know that. Many people come, their first day, oh I want to know all the bhandas! Mula bandha—they don’t even know what it is. People telling, I know some senior student, they giving lecture and they don’t even know what mula bandha is, “Oh, yeah, anus contraction, yeah,” how to do that? How long it will take? What is that?

There’s so many things. The philosophy behind mula bandha no one knows. What is the philosophy behind mula bandha is, that that is the source to control the mind. There’s lots of verses which says, “If you master in mula bandha, even an old person will become young.”

This is another verse that says, “What is the source for this whole existence?” Without the air, nobody can live, fire, earth, ether, space. This fire is very important, without this nobody can survive. What is the source for this fire? I know many of you don’t want to believe in God, because it’s scary, to believe in God. Yeah, I’ve heard it so many times, “Ah, God, I don’t want, no…” So what is the source for this fire? It is the God, the Supreme Energy. This is the Supreme Soul, the Supreme Soul is the source for this fire.

How do you think this is created? There should be someone who created all these things. Created water, created air. Bringing life. This would be some energy, which is there. Energy, we can just feel it, just like yoga. Yoga you do asanas, but real yoga happens within you. Which you feel inside. So, like that is the source for the energy, the fire. What is the source? He’s just giving an example, like how I give all the time, masala dosa. So what is the source for this? To control the mind. Mula bandha is the source.

He says, “Mula bandha, he who masters it becomes the greatest yogi, the king of all the yogis.” Raja yogi means, the king of all the yogis. Many commentaries have been written on mula bandha, it doesn’t come, “Oh, I pay shala fees for one month in Mysore and I practice everyday seriously, but I didn’t find mula bandha,” It’s not possible, like that to get. It’s practice. It takes one year, two years, three years, so then you keep on practicing. Like on English man said, “Practice makes man perfect,” my wife the other day she said, “Man has to work to become perfect, but women are already perfect.”

Let’s say everyone perfect! So, how perfection comes? Only through practice. Nowadays it is all fast, fast food, you get everything fast. Everything is take away, no process to cook, or to do anything. Processing the new generation, they don’t like. Masala dosa to go. The process to make masala dosa is two days process, it’s not one day. They have to grind it, leave it the whole night, it gets fermented, long process. So yoga is also a process which should happen. Mula bandha, asanas also. To master an asana it takes time. You have to give the time, if you don’t give the time you won’t know what yoga is. So everything is mula bandha also, it takes one, two, or three years. It might take longer. Day by day when you practice you become more familiar with your asana practice. Then my grandfather always used to teach—if you go to other yoga straightaway the first day they will teach you ten, fifteen asanas straightaway. That asana, this asana, there’s no method.

Here in this state of yoga we always progress slowly, slowly, step by step. Once we master one asana then we move on to next asana. When we practice two to five years then we can realize what we are doing, until then it is just practice, more physical.

How to realize beyond your physical practice? Once we get more clarity within us, the yamas, niyamas, asana. This one subject itself, it takes forever, to learn the purpose of doing it. So many people, they get very confused. Many people who don’t have proper knowledge of yoga, you can stragihtaway know the difference—people who don’t have in-depth knowledge or experience, meaning once you do asanas for many years with devotion—it just becomes physical. Many people they don’t want to do. Asana becomes ego. Ego because you have ego, already, here what we are doing—yoga—to get rid of this thing. These people who don’t have proper understanding of yoga, you can straight away make out they don’t have experience in the system, in yoga. Straightaway—philosophy anyone can talk with a book, “Oh yeah, this is yoga,” but the in-depth experience is only through practical experience and thoughts which come in your practice, and finding answers within you and through the help of your guru. Then you get better clarity within you. Then better understanding will come. Anyone can quote sutras. Lots of translations in English—they say, “Yeah, I know,” anyone can quote sutras. My son, Sambav, can do that.

What is behind Citta Vritti Nirodah—how to do that? Have you realized that or not? You realize that, you gain Saddanah, in-depth knowledge to realize that. You do Saddanah, then only you get better understanding. Exactly for anything in yoga, as I told you, you can purchase certificate, but that won’t make you a yogi. It’s good to put on your wall and they advertise everywhere, “Yogi! Yogi John,”

Long time back I met one student, a wife of one of my friends, she said, “Oh! I am practicing yoga for four years now,” and she is asking me,” What is this? What is that?” I said, “Your teacher didn’t teach you? “ She said no, “I don’t do ashtanga yoga I do hatha yoga.” Me, “Oh OK, what is hatha yoga mean? Can you explain me?”

“Oh, don’t ask me all those things!” So in five years practicing with someone they don’t even know what hatha yoga means and she is asking all the questions to me. Unfortunately these things are happening, some people learn some asanas, they have bendy body, and they say, “I’m a yoga guru.” You see it in the paper. There’s no respect for the yoga guru, they don’t have any respect.

A guru removes all the darkness within us, all the obstacles within us, and takes us towards the brightness. Towards the jnana—the real brightness which we should have. The spiritual knowledge, removes all the ignorance in us, and takes us towards the brightness. To become a guru, this guru should have this experience for many years. This is called guru-shisha parampara. This is the lineage coming from a parampara. This is what happens when there is no parampara. (Gurus and yogi John’s everywhere, etc.) Paramprara means a teacher, a guru or master, a master, which is totally different from a teacher because their experience is in-depth on some subject. Mastering this technique, a student, devoted, the student also has some responsibilities. “Oh, I was in Mysore, I just wanted to do some yoga so I went to KPJ, I was going to Kerala, just passing Mysore, Kerala to do Pancha Karma,” He will be passing through and will never understand what yoga is.

Someone asked, “How do you recognize your guru?” A wise man asks. How to find the guru, he asks a very big master. The master says, “when you hate your guru when you see him the first time.” Then something in your mind says, “I can learn something from him,” but then something in your mind again resists. Finally, he becomes your guru.

Q&A

Q: What’s the process for developing this mula bandha?

A: There are many asanas. Now you are struggling with uth pluttihi, this is a very big tool. It’s a good tool to improve your mula bandha. Navasana, even jumping through and jumping back, one day I will show you how some people they go to handstand—this is not uth pluttihi—it doesn’t need any strength. As soon as you are mastering it is like flying, you can just jump through. It’s easy. The whole balance of your body will change once there is mula bandha, uth pluttihi is very important—it just means lift up, that’s all. Elevating your body, that’s uth plutthihi, so this one when you practice navasana try to pick up with your whole body off the floor. The feet don’t touch the floor. Once mula bandha comes uddiyana bandha will come. jalandhara bandha is mostly in pranaymana. It stops all the external air, these three bhandas will come. Right now, this things is to do, if you do mula bandha correctly you will find the other two. The source has to be strong. The foundation is not strong, then whatever comes through that will not be strong.

Q: I know of the Sutras, but I don’t know who Patanjali actually is?

A: Patanjali, there will be lots of people suffering with lots of diseases, so if Patanjali takes birth in his form with thousands of heads, people will get scared. That is why he takes form as both a human and serpent. To bring health to the people, the suffering people with diseases (physical or mental), the people are lost with delusion and confusion, lots of ignorance. He comes to preach yoga. Three things he brought is yoga for clarity, for concentration, to bring steadiness to the mind. He brought grammar, without grammar you won’t have better speech and understanding. He brought grammar. To cure diseases, he brought Ayurveda. There are two kinds of yogas— some diseases can be cured by asana practice. Some need Ayurveda.

Without grammar you won’t have better speech, without yoga you can’t have peace of mind, without Ayurveda you won’t have health—there are no side effects in Ayruveda it is all natural. Patanjali brought these three things. In the yoga sutras, yoga was before these sutras also, yoga was always there. The whole universe, the whole existence started and yoga started then. It came before Patanjali. All of this you see, the reminders start coming. Krishna he comes in the Bhagavad Gita and he teaches about yoga, Patanjali comes and he teaches about yoga. In the Bhagavad Gita it says, “Yoga is a very old knowledge and practice, which has come from a lineage, from parampara.” It has come from one generation, guru, to another, student.

There is no time when yoga started. It’s timeless. Why is it timeless? Because yoga can’t be seen, it can only be experienced. You can see me, as soon as I took birth. Yoga is all the experience, which happens within you, if you do in the proper direction with the proper ingredients. If you want to plant a rose plant you have to nourish the earth, the soil, you have to give many things.

If you nourish that soil, then automatically a flower will blossom. If you don’t, the plant will die. Is it not true? You don’t water it or nourish it and it will die. Like that, our body is here and our mind is there. What is the nourishment we have to give for the yoga to happen? Yoga is the flower that blossoms within you. What to do for yoga to blossom? We have to follow yama, niyamas, asana, pranayama. Yamas and Niyamas are very important in our practice, these are the nourishment. Then the yoga will happen. The first four limbs are external exercises. Now I’m doing Dhyana. You can’t say that. Some people want more attention, “Oh yeah, I went to this lady she was doing dhyana!” If you are in the state of dhyana nobody will realize, it happens within you! You can’t advertise, it happens within you! When you are in this state you get absorbed in the deepest meditation, all of your sense organs come together and you go to that deepest state of yoga. Meditation can be focused, drishti can be meditation, that’s all. Dhyana is where you withdraw all your sense organs and everything becomes one. Everything becomes one and you don’t know where you are, then everything becomes clear.

There’s no you and then that thing, everything becomes one. That is again, yoga. Yoga can be described as many things. Self-realization is the perfect word for yoga. Transformation happens when self-realization happens. Transformation happens when you follow yama and niyamas. It becomes clearer, day-by-day and year-by-year as you practice. If the transformation does not happen you are doing something wrong, you are making some mistakes.

Q: Why do injuries happen?

A: There’s lots of reasons. Overdoing it is easy to injure yourself, you do it here and you go home and do it again. You’re doing asana practice you just have to concentrate on asana practice. You can’t go and do bicycling for two hours and then come and do asanas. These are opposite things. When you’re doing asana you don’t need to do anything else. Your body is getting stiffer cycling. Here you are coming and getting flexible. When your body is getting stiff and flexible, stiff and flexible, then you are easy to hurt yourself. Everything in asana practice is opening.

I played lots of cricket when I was young, so when I came back to yoga I could feel that there was so much difference between cricket and yoga. I didn’t play after that. I had to go through so many pains in the practice. When you are getting flexible also you get pain in the body, so many changes. If you go to bad teacher, it is possible to get injured.

You have to allow your body to change. You see someone else doing a pose and oh you want to do!! Then you do and don’t give time for your body to change, then you hurt yourself. You should understand how to use the asanas. You can’t do all the asanas and you have to give time. The more time you give, the more you can perfect. You want perfection or you want to learn 100 asanas without any perfection? I would rather do ten asanas or twenty with perfection.

There’s lots of changes to happen in your body. This process should happen. Sometimes you get pain and it quickly goes away, sometimes you get pain and it doesn’t go away for years.

Once in 93/94, guruji taught me a deep back bending and I wanted to go deeper and deeper. It was eka pada raja kapotasana, you bring the leg behind you and catch the ankle with both hands, I was already deep—my heel was here (he points to his nose)—and I thought, “Oh, I can go deeper,” so I pulled and heard a tear here. I couldn’t lift my hand. The morning it happened, I came home, I could take deep breath, in the evening an institution came and wanted us to give demo. My grandfather said, “Yeah, tomorrow we will give, no problem,” I said, “Who is doing the demo? I’m injured, I can’t lift my hand or breath.” There was no one to do the demo, I had to do the demo. I don’t know how I did, but I did kapotasana. After that for one month I couldn’t move my body—even Surya Namaskara was hard! Sometimes we don’t put enough attention in asana practice. The attention should only be in asana practice, when your mind gets distracted, you’re physically here but your mind is somewhere else, many times you get injured like this.

The whole attention should be on your practice. It’s a kind of meditation also, which you learn and it automatically becomes a meditative practice. All of your attention is towards, “Oh what’s he doing? Oh she’s doing kapotasna,” then you go have coffee and discuss all the asanas. Concentrate on your practice. Put everything into your practice. Do that for one week, two weeks, two months and your practice becomes a meditative practice. You do that and your practice will change, you can feel this is not just physical exercise, but a spiritual practice. So many changes will happen within you when this happens.

I’ve done so many demonstrations. 5,000 or 6,000 people I have seen at demonstrations. As soon as I go to my postures I don’t know what happens around me. I’m not worried about how I can perform the asanas. It took many years of practice like that. Getting up at 1 o’clock everyday and practicing 2 or 3 hours I have developed that. As soon as I come to yoga practice my attention comes to my practice. This is what you have to develop within you. Once you develop that you can go to another level of yoga. You can straightaway experience something different.

Q: 99% of practice is not just for the practice, the yamas and niyamas also.

A: Guruji taught 99% practice but people didn’t understand what he was telling. Guruji’s English was very limited, but he learned so much over the years. Later on he became more fluent, but 99% practice many people think, “I have to do asanas here, I have to go home and do asanas, I have to do asanas there.” 99% practice, they didn’t have proper understanding what it was. The real experience only comes when we practice and we realize what it is.

Into The Shadows – the elusive search for happiness in Ashtanga Yoga

A question from a long-time student:

“Some days, the Ashtanga practice leaves me feeling peaceful, light and joyful. Then other days I’m left feeling grumpy, and tight with heaps of unpleasant feelings bubbling up inside. What the h*** is wrong with me?!?!”

Here are my thoughts:

The practice of Ashtanga Yoga shines a light in our hearts, it shines a light on our true Self. And it’s not until this light is shone that our darkest and deepest shadows are finally revealed. They are revealed as a part of the path to healing, a part of the path to happiness, but at first, they are often painful, and they sometimes cause sadness, frustration and/or anger.

Yoga is a practice of turning inward and connecting with the true Self, the light, the divine, the God within each one of us. But first, Yoga asks us to begin by calming our mind, trying to tame the monkey mind.

The monkey mind creates fluctuations in the mind like the ripples created from throwing pebbles into a lake; one thought, one pebble creates ripples that expand outward and continue rippling long after the pebble first broke the surface of the water. If we can start to calm these fluctuations, begin to still the waters of the mind, only then can we begin to see the true reflection of our Self. Only then can the light begin to shine, allowing us to see the shadows lying deep within.

While the initial work of calming the mind is crucial, it really is only the beginning of the journey. Once the mind is calm, then we’re finally able to actually see the shadows which have been buried in the depths of our consciousness. Like debris, which has settled on the bottom of the lake, long forgotten, these shadows are still there, shaping the landscape of our mind, and altering our behavior and thought patterns whether we realize it or not.

Ashtanga Yoga provides an opportunity to dredge this lake of the mind, an opportunity to finally remove the debris which no longer serves us, chipping away at the shadows which cause us suffering, this is the real work of Ashtanga Yoga, and this is the really really hard work of Ashtanga Yoga.

This is also the best work we can do for our Self, the best work we can do for our world.

As these shadows of our consciousness are revealed, in some way, we must re-experience them. We must accept that they are there, and then we have a choice to make. The choice to either continue carrying them around buried within our minds, allowing these shadows to shape who we are. Or we can start to release them, facing them honestly as we begin to clear away the debris, and let the light of the Divine shine on these shadows, filling our hearts and our lives with peace and light.

So, if you sometimes feel grumpy in or after your practice, maybe that’s OK – maybe it can be another way for us to heal if we let ourselves honestly surrender to the process of releasing past pain and suffering. But, it is our choice. We can choose to release the shadows and rise above the suffering of our conditioned minds. Or not, and continue to let these shadows rule our consciousness.

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Guru Gratitude

The full moon of July is celebrated with a Hindu festival known as GURU PURNIMA. This is a day honoring spiritual and academic teachers and is mostly celebrated by hindus and buddhists as a way of thanking their teachers.

The full moon of July is also the anniversary of the birth of Sri K. Pattabhi Jois, born on this day in 1915. Our beloved teacher, Guruji, the Father of Ashtanga Yoga was born on the day to honor our gurus.

Sri K. Pattabhi Jois a Guru, one who destroys/dispels darkness, the bringer of light, the guide on the spiritual journey of yoga. His eyes sparkled with peaceful joy and his smile invoked inspiration in all. His presence was humbling, comforting, and inspiring. He was a natural teacher and a true representation of yoga. And now, his grandson R. Sharath Jois continues to lead the Ashtanga tradition with honor and grace, our modern Ashtanga guru. Sharath’s teachings are honest and pure, wrapped in humor to inspire and motivate students from around the world, shining light into our hearts through the Ashtanga Yoga practice.

I am thankful for my teachers every day. I hear their words in my practice, inspiring me to roll out my mat, encouraging me to practice kapotasana one more time. And when I doubt the practice, when I doubt myself, I remember Guruji’s message to me “You, you come back, you take practice” and I do.

Thank you Guruji, thank you Sharath, thank you Ashtanga Yoga.

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5 ways to find JOY!! Even when you’ve got the GRUMPS!!

We all have grumpy days, it happens sometimes. You wake up one morning and the day just lacks its usual luster. Where there is usually a warm, glowing, ball of beautiful life giving energy in the sky, you see the sun as merely a hot, bright, blinding headache instead. Not fun. And when you wake up feeling bummed it can easily change your entire day – usually for the worse.

What’s a normally happy human to do when all you’re feeling is grumpy?

 

Try these techniques and see if you can change your perception and as a result, change your grumpy mood into one that is a little brighter and more enjoyable!!!

  • 1. Change your scenery and get out in nature!!
    Just a few moments in nature can alter your mood significantly, find a beautiful spot to sit and breathe, even if you only have five minutes. Absorb the sunlight, observe the colors and textures painted on our earth, breathe in the fresh air and feel your connection to your surroundings! Can’t get outside today, that’s ok, just PRETEND!!!! Close your eyes and imagine a beautiful place in nature, maybe some place you’ve been before, or maybe some place you’re dreaming of visiting. Find a quite place to sit for five minutes, close your eyes and let your imagination paint a scene in nature for you to absorb and observe. Notice the colors of the landscape, imagine the sounds you would hear, and let yourself find stillness.
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  • 2. Spend time with people you love!
    Take a couple of minutes to call, text or visit with a friend or family member you care about. Ask them about their day, tell them you love them or send them a wish for success in their day. Sometimes stepping out of your head to connect with someone else is all you need to start feeling a little better!
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  • 3. SING!!!!
    Turn up your favorite song and let it out!!!!!! Find a place where you can have privacy and let yourself get lost in a few of your favorite songs. Be silly. Dance. Sing. And don’t worry about how it sounds, how it looks or whether you’re singing the same words as the artist – just let yourself have fun and enjoy the experience of connecting to music!
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  • 4. Go for a walk!
    Whether it’s for five minutes or one hour, physical activity can change our state of mind for the better.
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  • 5. Do something nice for a stranger!
    Random acts of kindness can really help elevate your mood, so even when you’re feeling grumpy, practice a random act of kindness and it might help elevate your mood. Hold the door open for the person behind you. Let someone go ahead of you in line at the store. Smile at a stranger.

No one really like being in a grumpy mood, so when you notice your mood starts to sail south, try to take steps to counter your mood and you might find you can rise above that grumpy mood before it ruins your day.

A yoga practice can show us the power of our perception. When we practice asanas (yoga postures) we are able to see how altering our view of a situation can change our experience. Suddenly a frustrating experience turns in o a beautiful opportunity to learn more about yourself, and the experience transforms from something you were resisting to something you’re embracing.

That’s pretty awesome, if we can learn to control our perception, we can ultimately control our reality, at least on some level that is. We learn to change our responses to events, feelings and even start to appreciate the lessons in the most challenging situations.

 

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The Grateful Game – Gratitude As A Daily Practice

by: Jessica Lynne Trese (Moore)
Gratitude is a beautiful practice, it enriches your life, deepens your connection with others, and brings peace to your heart. It’s a daily practice.

I like to call my daily practice The Grateful Game!!!! I’ve done this for years, and when my partner and I first connected, I brought him in on the game too.

Every night, after the dishes are done, as we’re starting to wind down, we share at least three things we’re grateful for. Some days there are obvious things to be grateful for, maybe a job promotion, or a birth in the family, or sharing time with a beloved family member.

And some days, it’s harder to find the lesson of gratitude, it might be that you were shown one of your own faults and can see that you’d like to change it; or knowing when to put an argument on hold and admit you love each other; or a challenge at work that tests your patience.

This practice, reminds us that no matter what goes on, there is always something to be grateful for, there is always a way to find gratitude.

Gratitude in the smile from a stranger. Gratitude in the opportunity to accept differences in others with no judgments, or at least the opportunity to try. Gratitude for the opportunity to rest and try again tomorrow. Gratitude for seeing places in your life where you can grow. Gratitude simply for the sake of gratitude.

Gratitude is a practice, and some days are easier than others. As with any practice, the more you do it, the easier it gets. And when we surround ourselves with gratitude, it can permeate to those around us, filling their hearts with gratitude too!

Practice gratitude every day. And you will live every day with much to be grateful for.



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